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I can see why he didn't look...

I was just watching “The Monster At The End Of This Book,” and I was struck by the conversation that Sam and Dean have in the motel room when Sam reveals that he’s burned the hex bags Dean left to hide him from Lilith.
 Here’s the relevant text:

SAM
You think I’ll do it, don’t you? You think I’ll go dark side.

DEAN
Yes! Okay? Yes. The way you’ve been acting lately? The things you’ve been doing?
(SAM looks up, startled.)
Oh, I know. How you ripped Alastair apart like it was nothing, like you were swatting a fly. Cas told me, okay?

SAM
What else did he tell you?

DEAN
Nothing I don’t already know. That you’ve been using your psychic crap, and you’ve been getting stronger. We just don’t know why, and we don’t know how.

Dean has been hinting at his absolute lack of faith not only in Sam’s ability to watch his back, but in Sam’s actual goodness, in Sam being on the right side, all episode.  Here he actually comes out and says it out loud, not under any supernatural influence but just because he’s asked outright.  Because that’s how he feels.
And what does he cite as his reasoning?  The fact that Sam saved his life, and Castiel’s life, from Alastair in “On The Head Of A Pin.” Not only is Dean not grateful, he’s openly condemning of Sam for having done so.
Let me reiterate.  Dean openly condemns Sam for having saved him and his friend from a demon.  Sam not only cannot be thanked for having gotten the information Dean could not and saved an angel and a human life, he is to be condemned for it.  Sam cannot even be allowed to feel good about himself for having saved his brother.

Season 4 makes me cry.