Supernatural - Dean Winchester -BLEED-

Supernatural Dean Winchester -BLEED-

Jason Manns Stageit 24/12-14 - With Jensen Ackles

Mir war Langweilig...

I was bored...hence I started a Sam AU FanFic...and now it's turning into a  big story...but for now it's written in German...sorry.
When ever I should have more time, I will translate it in to English. :))

Mir war langweilig, daher fing mit einer Sam AU FanFic an, na ja irgend wie ist es ausgeartet...kann schon mal passieren... :))

Hier der Link:

http://samwfanfic.blogspot.de/2014/11/auch-konige-fallen-sams-reise-in-die.html

Wer lust hat einfach mal rein schauen.

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SUPERNATURAL - Did you look for me...Sam?

I will save....

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SPN 10x1
Review

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Dean

I'm too sexy...

Viele werden jetzt meinen, dass Dean als Dämon nicht so wirklich was hergibt, denn schließlich sang, trank, prügelte und vögelte der Mensch Dean, folglich könnte man jetzt fragen, wo ist jetzt der Unterschied bzw. gibt es überhaupt einen Unterschied?

Meines Erachtens gibt es einen sehr gewaltigen Unterschied, begründet in der Tatsache, dass Deans Verhalten keine moralische Muster beinhaltet, ersichtlich im grenzenlosen austoben des eigenen Egos trotz sichtlicher und deutlicher Ablehnung seitens der teilhabenden Personen.

Zum Beispiel wird mehrfach ein schräg ignorant singender Dean gezeigt, alleine die Auswahl der Lieder zeigt schon, dass der Schwerpunkt auf dem Übertreiben des Normalen gesetzt wird, „I'm to sexy...“ und der „Imaginary Lover“, also Lieder die von vornherein als „übertrieben“ bezeichnet werden könnten und somit im Kontext von Dämonen Dean richtig gewählt sind, denn als Über-Dämon hat Moral, normal und grenzen keine Bedeutung mehr.

Der Trinkende Dean, auch hier grenzenlos, kein Ende in Sicht. Er hört erst auf zu trinken als die Kellnerin Ann-Marie ihn die Grenze zeigt. Dämonen Dean ist bewusst egal ob sein grenzenloses Verhalten in der Bar jemanden stört oder nicht. Ihm kümmert es nicht, geht ihm am Arsch vorbei, da egal.

Auch sein sexuelles treiben mit der Kellnerin zeigt eher ein egoistisches Ich bezogenes Verhalten, er weiß, dass er seiner Meinung nach eine Wucht im Bett war, auch hier wieder ein übertriebenes Bild von Dean. Seine jetzige Welt wird einzig geprägt durch das ignorante austoben und bestätigen des eigenen Egos, zu mehr Empathie ist Dämon-Dean nicht fähig.

Und dies hatte auch die Kellnerin Ann-Marie am Ende angemerkt, Dean ist per Definition ein Psychopath, denn wie Ann-Marie richtig anmerkte, hatte er nicht ihre Ehre verteidigt, sondern Dean verteidigte einzig sein indem Moment ausgesuchter Besitz, nicht mehr und nicht weniger. Folglich als der Freund Ann-Marie bedrängte, griff er ohne es zu erahnen Deans Eigentum an. Um die Kellnerin und ihre Gefühle ging es den Dämonen Dean nicht, und auch hier, hörte er erst auf den Typen zu schlagen erst nachdem Crowley ihn mit einem pfeifen signalisierte es wäre genug.

Folglich haben wir es durchaus mit einem Dämonen zu tun, Dean ist ekelig, grenzenlos Brutal und absolut Ego getrieben und das wichtigste von allem ihm geht sein Bruder am Arsch vorbei, früher brauchte jemand nur Sam schief anzusehen und Dean fühlte sich so gleich berufen sein Bruder zu verteidigen. Und jetzt...“Is he dead?...Well his problem...“, absolut kein emotionaler Bezug zu Sam, kalt...Interessenlos, nur vom purem selbstsüchtigen Ego gesteuert, Dämonen Dean interessiert sich einzig für Dämonen Dean...alles andere hat keine Bedeutung. 

...meines Erachtens kein Vergleich mit dem Menschen Dean. 

 

Sam

Where is my BROTHER!

Als erstes sehen wir einen verletzten und wütenden Sam, der einen Dämon foltert und nach seinem Bruder und Crowley fragt. Hmm...nichts außer gewöhnliches in der Winchester Welt, nur was genau sehen wir?

Wir sehen einen eiskalten und berechnenden Sam...

Jetzt stellt sich die Frage was genau hat den Sam alles in der Zeit getan, nachdem er entdeckte, dass sein Brüder doch nicht das Zeitliche gesegnet hatte?

Wir dürfen nicht vergessen, Sam ist auf weiter Flur alleine...

Auf den Engel Castiel muss Sam verzichten, denn anscheinend verursacht er mehr Schaden als er nutzen bringt. Freundlich weist Sam Castiel, dass er bei der Suche nach Dean zukünftig auf Castiels Hilfe verzichten wird. Nicht weil Sam den alleinigen Rächer mimen will, sondern weil er erkennt, dass der Engel Castiel physisch nicht in der Lage ist, ihm beistand und Deckung zu gewähren. Höflich würgt Sam das Gespräch mit Castiel ab und taucht in sein ihm vertrauten Bereich den Büchern ab, er wühlt sich unerschöpflich, rastlos durch das gesammelte Wissen der Men of Letters und dem Welt weiten Wissen dem Internet, und saugt alles an Wissen auf, in der Hoffnung irgendetwas zu finden was ihn in seiner Verzweifelten Suche nach seinem Bruder weiter helfen könnte.

Um letzten Endes tatsächlich schmerzlich zu erfahren und zu erkennen, dass sein Bruder zu dem Geworden ist was er Abgrund tief hasst...ein Dämon. Jedoch im Gegensatz zum „Mensch“ Dean richtet Sam seine eiskalte Wut nicht auf das Opfer also Dean, sondern einzig auf den Verursacher der Tragödie, für Sam wird Dean immer der Bruder sein, und sein Ziel egal was es kostet oder welche Konsequenzen daraus erfolgen sein Bruder von dem MoC zu befreien und Crowley zu töten...

Viele Zuschauer sehen in Sam, im Gegensatz zu Dean, einen Waschlappen, der ohne Dean nicht die leiseste Chance hätte zu überleben, Entscheidungen zu treffen oder gar gegen Dämonen zu kämpfen. Nur stimmt diese Wahrnehmung? 

Meines Erachtens absolut nicht!

Warum? Wir die Zuschauer bekamen, leider zwar nur kurz, durchaus Einsichten und Verhalten von Sam gezeigt wenn es um das retten seines Bruders ging. Als Beispiel fast die ganze dritte Staffel zeigte wie verbissen Sam jeden Hinweis nachging um den Cross Road deal den Dean freiwillig abschloss, zu brechen egal ob es seinen eigen Tod kosten würde. Auch der Trickster / Gabriel in „Mystery Spot“ bemerkte, „Whoever said Dean was the dysfunctional one has never seen you with a sharp object in your hands.“

In der Folge war deutlich ersichtlich, dass Sam in ein Zwangsverhalten verfällt, einzig getrieben sein Bruder zu retten, er wusste wer es Verursacht hat, und er hatte nur ein Ziel, Dean retten und den Trickster töten. Alles andere wurde bedeutungslos, einzig das Ziel hatte Bedeutung und bestimmte Sams Sein und Zustand.

Jetzt werden viele Bemerken, dass in Staffel 8, Sam überhaupt nicht nach Dean suchte, somit ein völlig anderes Verhalten an den Tag legte...nur inwiefern stimmt denn diese Aussage und ist sie Vergleichbar mit Staffel 3?

Wenn man genau hinschaut und die vorausgegangenen Ereignisse der Staffel 8 mit berechnet, dann hatte Sam Absolut nichts womit er was hätte anfangen können um zu erkennen ob Dean tatsächlich Tod ist oder nicht.

Somit eine gänzlich andere Situation als in Staffel 3.

Denn Sam und Dean töteten den Leviathan einzig mit dem Wissen, dass der geweihte Knochen den Leviathan tötet, jedoch wurde mit keiner Silbe die Nebeneffekte erwähnt.

Somit war Sam, der kurz zuvor mit den Halluzinationen Luzifers belastet und im Sterben lag, den Verlust seines Ersatz Vaters Bobby ertragen musste, jetzt völlig auf sich gestellt. Man erinnere sich was Crowley zu Sam sagte bevor er sich ins Nichts begab, „Sam Winchester,...you are now truley on your own.“. Das Sam menschlich gesehen absolut nicht in der Lage war Dean in irgendeiner Form zu suchen, müsste ersichtlich sein ab dem Moment wenn man die einfache Frage stellt, wo genau hätte Sam anfangen sollen zu suchen und von woher hätte er sein Wissen erlangen sollen?

Von Bobby?...huch der war ja tod, von Castiel?...huch nicht da, vom Bunker?...ohh noch nicht existent.

Sam tat das was jeder normale Mensch in solch einer aussichtslosen Situation tun würde, er rannte und rannte voller Verzweiflung einfach nur weg....bis er ausgebremst wurde...durch einen Hund den er, da verletzt, retten musste. Einzig dieser Vorfall bremste zwar sein fliehen vor dem Erkenntnis, dass sein Bruder Tod war und weckte sein innerste treiben zu Retten, jedoch den schmerzlichen und traumatischen Verlust seines Bruders konnte der Hund wie die Frau nicht beheben.

War Sam schwach? Nein...wie denn auch...er ist nur ein Mensch, der nur mit den Mitteln und wissen, die ihn zur Verfügung stehen handeln kann.

Steht absolut nichts zur Verfügung dann ist er wie jeder andere Mensch einfach nur handlungsunfähig und machtlos. 

Jetzt zu Staffel 9, Sam steht nun das über hunderte Jahre gesammelte okkulte Wissen zu Verfügung und er weiß, wer sein Bruder tatsächlich auf dem Gewissen hat. Diese einfache Tatsache macht ihn zum absoluten Dämonen Jäger, er hat das Wissen und das Können, und er kennt die Ursache....tja ich würde meinen, dass Crowley sich jetzt warm anziehen sollte, denn es wird ein konsequent-loser und ein eiskalter Sturm ohne Gleichen des Hasses auf ihm zu kommen... etwas was Crowley und Dean in ihrer Eigensucht selbst verursacht haben...

Crowley

Lets talk business

Was soll man sagen...das es einen leid tut, das er seine Kreation, Dämon Dean nicht so in griff hat, und seine Vorstellung die Hölle zu regieren und den Mond an zu heulen mit dem neu erschaffenen Knight of Hell nicht so richtig, planmäßig vorangeht?

Hmm..tut mir leid Crowley, aber das hättest du in deiner Planung berücksichtigen sollen...ich meine du hättest einfach eine deiner Dämonen befragen sollen...was sagte nochmal die Dämonin Cassie zu Dean in der Folge „Sin City“ 3x4 „Oh, right - Sam. Everyone say's he's the brains of the outfit.“

....upps Hochmut kommt vor dem Fall...nun hast du nicht nur einen wild und hemmungslosen Knight of Hell an der Backe, sondern du hast dir noch zusätzlich ein dich Abgrund tief hassende Nemesis geschaffen...wer Wind sät erntet Sturm...als Zuschauer muss ich ehrlich gestehen freue ich mich auf diese neue Herausforderung für Crowley.

Sam und Dean beide in ihrer jeweiligen Art, sind auf Krawall gebürstet und Crowley dazwischen...das wird bestimmt lustig...

Hmm...

I'm Karma on your Brother's phone

Enden tut die erste Folge mit einem geheimnisvollen jungen Mann...ein Mann, der mit einer Frau und Kind zusammen lebt, ist es seine Familie? Der kleine Junge sagt zwar dad  aber sonst keine ahnung...

Wir wissen auf Grund eines Photos an der Wand hängend, dass er ein Veteran der US-Army ist, vielleicht gar ein Marine? Keine Ahnung...

Wir wissen, dass er anscheinend über gleichgesinnte verfügt bzw. gut vernetzt und organisiert ist, denn auf dem Fax das ihm zugeschickt wurde, das mit Deans Abbild ist nur ein „yep“ zu lesen...

Wir wissen, dass er Kämpfer ist, technisch versiert und der Inhalt seines Waffenschrank ging über des eines normalo Jäger hinaus, spez. Angefertigte Uzi (klein Mashinengewehr), Strumgewehr (Assault rifle), Pumpgun (Repetierschrotflinte) und diverse Pistolen...sauberst gelagert und unscheinbar transportfähig, folglich ein Mann der ein Ziel verfolgt und genau einen plan hat wie er zu seinem Ziel ohne Umwege und Mitleid gelangen kann.

Wissen wir ob er über die Übernatürliche Welt Bescheid weißt? Keine Ahnung... Aber man sah man kurz einen silbernen Flacon mit einem hervorgehobenen Kreuz darauf, interessant war aber wie der Fremde sich zwar nur kurz, jedoch mit Gefühl diesem Objekt sich widmete.
Warum? Keine Ahnung...

Wir wissen nicht mal seinen Namen, einzig nur, dass er aus Deans Vergangenheit stammte und einen unstillbaren kalten Rache -durst hegt...ähnlich wie bei Sam...bizarr

Angefangen hat die Folge damit, dass Sam einen Dämonen foltert um an Informationen über Crowley zu gelangen, geendet hat die Folge damit, das Sam jetzt der Gefangene ist und vermutlich gefoltert wird um Informationen über Dean preiszugeben...

Der Kreislauf von Kismet...

Über Castiel schweige ich da dieser Charakter mich persönlich nicht interessiert und da er außer einen Anruf von Sam nichts mit den Brüder aktiv was teilte..gibt es nichts zu berichten, da seine Engelsgeschichte in der Folge nichts beinhaltete was die Brüder betraf.

Mein Fazit...verdammte scheiße!!!

Ist schon Dienstag? Ich will JETZT sofort wissen wie es weiter geht, man ich hasse es wenn die solche Kliff -hänger machen...

Ja ich fand es spannend und wurde für 5 Monate warten durchaus entschädigt wir bekamen einen abartigen Dämonen Dean einen Hitman Sam und eine Fremde rätselhafte und neuer Charakter wurde uns vorgestellt... yep alles da Spiel, Spaß und Spannung.

Ist schon Dienstag?

Sam der Logiker...eine Begnung ohne Gleichen

 

   

  

Ist schon bizarr wie die SPN-Gemeinde Sam (the brain) gerne unterschätzen, und wenn er dann wegen Dean dann in Kill modus ist, sind alle erstaunt...dabei ist Sams Reaktion nicht erstaunlich denn am Ende von "Mystery Spot" und bei "Hunted" kann man "sehen" wie Sam kalt rational jeden begegned der meint Dean alls Waffe gegen ihn zu verwenden. Folglich wird Crowley einen kalten und rationalen Sam erleben, jemanden den Crowley vielleicht hätte nicht  herausfordern sollen...    

Sam is NO monster! Why?

 

What defines a monster?

A monster is an entity that doesn't belong to the human MORAL community and has no conscious. Because the entity doesn't belong to the moral community and has no conscious it cannot relate and and emphasize with the moral codex of the human community. It feels no guilt, no remorse...

Ergo Sam is human, he belongs to the moral community has a conscious therefor he is by definition no monster and doesn't act like one.


Now having this in mind when Sam acts towards a demon / evil spirit by human means in a immoral manner is he now a monster? No.
Why? Because if he would react towards a demon / evil spirit morally the demon couldn't by the lack of emphasis and conscious respond in a manner that would satisfy the action.


According to the author Emanuel Swedenborg a a Swedish scientist, philosopher, theologian, revelator, and mystic from the 17^th century “evil spirits aka demons narrate things wholly false and lie. When evil spirits begin to speak to man, care should be taken NOT TO BELIEVE THEM...for most everything(!) they say is made up by them and they lie...And if man listens and believes, they the evil spirits insist and in various ways deceive and seduce.”

Therefor when the naïve (childish?) vast majority of viewers but not all(!) believes the demon / evil spirit instead the human, then sorry to say they have fall pray to the seduction manipulation of the evil spirit...


What the vast majority of viewers tend to forget is that Dean is DEAD, el morte, expired, is no more...what they see is an EVIL SPIRIT a demon nothing human except the vessel or meatsuit which the demon is occupying.


Knowing that Sam absolutely hates demons, knows that the DEMON Crowley is responsible for Deans death and transformation, now what should he precisely do?
Correct he gains imo the massive OCCULT(!) knowledge that the Man of Letters over centuries collected, since “Sin City” we know that Sam is the brain to the outfit, therefor one can assume since he knows who is to be held responsible, that Sam by all means isn't going to hesitate to search and FIGHT for his brother.
By gaining the occult knowledge Sam is imo going to turn into a master of the occult, or simply said he is going to be a true Man of Letters a sorcerer, wicca, witcher... BUT not a monster...
BIG difference...
In conclusion to fight the evil one should gain knowledge about the evil...know your enemy...
“Knowledge is power!” Francis Bacon

SUPERNATURAL - Just... Kill The Winchesters

Supernatural Spoilers: Jared Padelecki Teases Flashbacks, Demon Dean & More

Supernatural Spoilers: Jared Padelecki Teases Flashbacks, Demon Dean & More

Misha Collins Serving Coffee to Hall H Line

Have not much more to say

 


sweetsamofmine:

keiuolari:

#this is sam like… 98% of the time#babycakes#remember when sam had head trauma that was making him hallucinate?#and then dean punched him directly in the head for taking the car without asking?#and people want to say it was because he was CONCERNED#hahaha no (via sweetsamofmine)

yeah because apparently nothing says ‘i was concerned and afraid for you’ like a punch to the face
after recent major head trauma
y’know
just in case the intracraneal pressure managed to come down a bit
why yes i am feeling a bit bitter why do you ask? (via keiuolari​)

(Source: exbloodjunkie, via sammysokay)

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theboysofletters:

all i could see during this scene

I think this is important to reblog during my rewatch since this is the first thing that jumped to my mind when I rewatched this scene.

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I know it looks really odd that I always reblog Safiya's posts but I love what Safiya writes... I see what she sees, and I'm so happy that I found her on thumblr.... 

SAFIYA

I can see why he didn't look...

I was just watching “The Monster At The End Of This Book,” and I was struck by the conversation that Sam and Dean have in the motel room when Sam reveals that he’s burned the hex bags Dean left to hide him from Lilith.
 Here’s the relevant text:

SAM
You think I’ll do it, don’t you? You think I’ll go dark side.

DEAN
Yes! Okay? Yes. The way you’ve been acting lately? The things you’ve been doing?
(SAM looks up, startled.)
Oh, I know. How you ripped Alastair apart like it was nothing, like you were swatting a fly. Cas told me, okay?

SAM
What else did he tell you?

DEAN
Nothing I don’t already know. That you’ve been using your psychic crap, and you’ve been getting stronger. We just don’t know why, and we don’t know how.

Dean has been hinting at his absolute lack of faith not only in Sam’s ability to watch his back, but in Sam’s actual goodness, in Sam being on the right side, all episode.  Here he actually comes out and says it out loud, not under any supernatural influence but just because he’s asked outright.  Because that’s how he feels.
And what does he cite as his reasoning?  The fact that Sam saved his life, and Castiel’s life, from Alastair in “On The Head Of A Pin.” Not only is Dean not grateful, he’s openly condemning of Sam for having done so.
Let me reiterate.  Dean openly condemns Sam for having saved him and his friend from a demon.  Sam not only cannot be thanked for having gotten the information Dean could not and saved an angel and a human life, he is to be condemned for it.  Sam cannot even be allowed to feel good about himself for having saved his brother.

Season 4 makes me cry.

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FRIENDLY REMINDER;

Dean was willing to kill Sam while Sam was possessed by Gadreel, Dean was willing to let Sam die in detox, and Dean was willing to let Sam die from his memories of Hell.
You know what those instances have in common? Dean can control the situation. The detox was on Dean, the possession was on Dean, and the re-souling was on Dean; the situation was because of, and monitored by Dean.
Do not say Dean is the be-all-end-all of sacrificing martyrs when it comes to Sam. It is not true.

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"Lazarus Rising" starts the whole Apocalyptic storyline of the show.  It introduces angels - who have shown up (the Trickster being Gabriel) but not been outed as such - and it moves the Winchesters from being regular hunters to players in a much larger game.  I should say that it moves Dean from being a regular hunter to being a player in a much larger game - Sam stopped being a regular hunter once the secret of his being psychic became known and other hunters decided he was fair game back in "Hunted."  The episode introduces a pile of questions so deep you could drown in them, and of course as fans we delight in the drowning, but the question that has never been addressed and that I’d love to see someone ask at a con is this:
Why did Sam drive over 200 miles from New Harmony, Indiana to Pontiac, Michigan to bury Dean?

  Lazarus Rising: The Episode

"Lazarus Rising," as I mentioned, gives us a whole new species to play with.  This is our first cognizant meeting with Castiel, and while it is visually impressive and dramatic in every way Castiel gives us all kinds of red flags right from the start that he is not here in anyone’s best interests but Heaven’s.  Well, first of all he resurrects Dean but leaves him buried alive in a coffin.  Who does that?  And he tells Dean point blank that he pulled Dean out of Hell "Because we have work for you."  That’s not even subtle.  We pulled you out for our reasons, not because you didn’t deserve to be in Hell, and now you owe us. 

We see Bobby, and Bobby’s reaction to Dean’s resurrection is markedly different from his reaction to Sam’s resurrection.  We have to remember that when he encounters Dean he quickly believes that Sam must have sold his soul to accomplish the task, just as Dean sold his soul to bring Sam back.  When Sam was resurrected he was repulsed by Sam, didn’t want to get near him.  Once he accepted that Dean was in fact Dean, Bobby was overjoyed. 

We meet Pamela Barnes, one of fandom’s favorite figures even though we only see her a few times.  She is a psychic, but somehow she is a “good” psychic like Missouri and not a “bad” psychic like Sam.  I’m not entirely sure what the basis is for the line between “good” and “bad” psychics but that shouldn’t be held against Pamela, who prefers Dean but is at least friendly toward Sam. 

We also have Ruby, in a stunning new body.  She has some fun as she pretends to be some random girl Sam picked up, but it’s clear both that she and Sam have been together for some time and that she is unwilling to try to separate the brothers.  Her end game - which we know, in hindsight, involves Sam freeing Lucifer - does not involve her and Sam alone together. 

Dean Winchester

 On the list of things I don’t want even for my worst enemies: buried alive.  Maybe it’s a phobia of mine.  I’m not alone.  Some Victorians had elaborate contraptions intended to ensure that they did not meet that very fate.  Dean waking up alone in a coffin underground terrified me, and I don’t like him at all.  Who resurrects a guy and then leaves him in a coffin underground?  I mean, really, who does that?  (I keep saying this, but it clearly upsets me.)

Anyway, Dean tells Bobby and Sam that he doesn’t remember anything from Hell but we know he’s lying.  We see in his coffin that he has flashbacks, we see him having flashbacks in the motel bathroom. 

So Dean gets resurrected from Hell and he breaks into a gas station store.  The electronics start going haywire around him.  We know now of course that it was Castiel, but I kind of wonder why Dean didn’t assume that it was him?  I mean, he’d just escaped Hell.  Why would he not assume that there was some kind of supernatural influence at work, that he had been changed somehow? 

He learns that Bobby has been drinking heavily since Dean’s death, which is unsurprising.  Dean was Bobby’s favorite after all.  He is quick to enlist Bobby’s aid in tracking his brother down, and he’s quick to enlist Bobby’s aid in summoning Castiel.  He doesn’t pay much heed to Bobby’s reservations about summoning Castiel, either.  This should be surprising but it isn’t.  Dean respects Bobby more than he respects other people, but he’s still Dean.  He’s going to do what he’s going to do, even though it’s already gotten Pamela blinded. 

The encounter with the demon waitress is indicative of two things about Dean.  The first is that Dean had no idea that the waitress was frightened of Sam.  He completely failed to pick up on the fact that she kept glancing at Sam and seeming nervous, attributing all of her fear to whatever pulled him out of Hell and possibly to his time with Alistair.  The second is - well, it’s Dean’s time with Alistair.  They haven’t talked about Dean’s time as a torturer yet, but they show the effects here.  Dean shows himself to be perfectly willing to smack the waitress around, knowing that she won’t respond.  This is something he wouldn’t have done before he went to Hell. 

Dean is unimpressed initially by Castiel.  He can’t bring himself to believe in angels, and he gives a lot of sass back to the angel.  He also stabs him in the chest which usually puts a damper on first meetings.  He cannot bring himself to believe that an angel would save him, of all people, and of course we know why.  He was a torturer.  He enjoyed it.  We don’t really judge him for it, because it’s Hell and Hell burns away your humanity and when you’re being tortured eventually you’ll break.  But Dean does see himself differently.

And that line, that “we have work for you” line, should have been a huge clue that the angels were using him and leading him around.

Sam Winchester

  "Lazarus Rising" marks a turning point in the show’s treatment of Sam.  This is the point when it becomes significantly more difficult to talk about Sam without talking about Dean.

 Apparently Sam drove Dean’s corpse to Michigan, buried it in a simple wooden coffin with Bobby after retrieving the Samulet, and then parted ways with Bobby.  We learn in later episodes that he tried to sell his soul and was rejected, picked fights with demons he couldn’t beat, and basically gave “suicidally reckless” a new poster child.  He ditched his phone and got a new one.  We know he hooked up with Ruby again, in multiple ways, and he started using a new side to his psychic abilities.  This may have something to do with his avoidance of Bobby - Bobby did not approve of his use of any of his abilities and was frankly repulsed by them. 

Here’s the thing though.  Bobby states that he tried calling Sam repeatedly but doesn’t say that the phone was turned off, he doesn’t seem to realize that Sam got a new phone number.  He says that Sam “don’t want to be found” but it’s hard to say how much of an effort he put in.  It took Dean five seconds to find him.  Remember that location spell Bobby used to track down Lilith?  If he could find Lilith so easily, how hard would it have been for him to find a drunk and suicidal young man who wasn’t really trying to hide himself? 

It doesn’t stop him from castigating Sam during their confrontation about Sam’s activities during the hiatus.  When Sam admits that he was going after Lilith Bobby snarls, “All by yourself?  Who do you think you are, your old man?”  There are multiple layers of meaning there.  First, it’s an insult to Sam’s abilities.  John Winchester’s skill as a hunter are well renowned.  Sam of course could never measure up in another hunter’s eyes.  Then it’s an insult to Sam’s relationship with his father.  And then there’s the control aspect.  Neither Dean nor John ever intended for Sam to hunt alone, they expected that he would always be following someone else’s direction. 

It is left to Sam to apologize for not involving Bobby, but considering Bobby’s cold behavior to him over the course of their acquaintance I can’t really blame him for not turning to Bobby as an ally or resource.  It wasn’t hard to see that Bobby was Dean’s friend. 

Sam tries to talk to Dean about Hell.  I can’t help but suspect that there are multiple reasons for that.  Obviously he wants to offer an opportunity for Dean to open up.  I think he also has concerns about his own fate.  He knows about his own heritage, after all. 

Which brings me to the secret confrontation with the waitress in the diner after hours.  The other demons have been killed by an angel, presumably Castiel.  He encounters the waitress, who has somehow managed to survive the smiting, and when she talks about what she encountered she says “We’re dead, we’re all dead.”  She is including Sam in that statement. In her estimation Sam’s abilities, or his blood, make him sufficiently demonic to count as damned if angels are present. 

As a point of pride, she mentions that she “could smell your soul a mile away.”  Sam Winchester’s soul is just that bright and beautiful. 

Sam meets up with Ruby and they discuss his progress.  They also talk about his relationship with his brother.  He is afraid to talk about his activities with Dean, but Ruby encourages him to do so sooner rather than later.  This is good advice.  He also says that he’s not sure that what he’s doing is right but that he’s saving people and stopping demons, and that feels pretty good.  It’s about saving people.  Not about grasping for power or wallowing in power here.  It’s about saving people, saving people from a fate he himself has experienced. 

Winchester Family Dynamics

 The first thing Dean does when he rises is call Sam.  When he gets to Bobby’s he is concerned to find Sam, and he’s upset to find that Bobby wasn’t “looking out” for Sam.  This seems touching, but of course looking out for Sam means controlling Sam.  Right now Sam is completely uncontrolled out on his own.  His parting injunction to Sam was that he needed to follow the John Winchester Way, and if no one is forcing him to do so Sam could be getting up to all kinds of things. 

Dean is also truly blind to Bobby’s favoritism.  He doesn’t see it, which is why he was so shocked to find Bobby hadn’t been keeping Sam close.  Dean did this with their father too - he honestly believed that their father preferred Sam over Dean despite the fact that Sam ran away repeatedly and the fact that their father treated Sam more harshly by Dean’s own admission. 

The brothers’ reunion is happy and enthusiastic but it soon turns to confrontation.  At first Dean is angry that Sam sold his soul and refuses to believe that Sam did not sell his soul.  Sam is forced to confess to his attempts to get Dean back, all of which were mired in failure for reasons he doesn’t yet know but that were out of his control.  He has to confess to his feelings of inadequacy:

 BOBBY
That’s exactly what we think.

 SAM
Well, I didn’t.

 DEAN
(intensely) Don’t lie to me.

SAM
I’m not lying.

 DEAN
(advancing) So what now, I’m off the hook and you’re on, is that it? You’re some demon’s bitch-boy? I didn’t want to be saved like this.

 SAM
(standing, angrily) Look, Dean, I wish I had done it, all right?

 DEAN
(grabs SAM by the front of his shirt) There’s no other way that this could have gone down. Now tell the truth!

 SAM
(breaking DEAN’S grip) I tried everything. That’s the truth. I tried opening the Devil’s Gate. Hell, I tried to bargain, Dean, but no demon would deal, all right? You were rotting in Hell for months. For months, and I couldn’t stop it. So I’m sorry it wasn’t me, all right? Dean, I’m sorry.

 DEAN
(relenting) It’s okay, Sammy. You don’t have to apologize, I believe you.

 After which Dean seems almost as disturbed that Sam didn’t get him out.  There’s glaring and posturing. 

Once that confrontation is over nothing Sam says or does is adequate.  Dean finds a bra in Sam’s bag (because he was poking through Sam’s bag?) and decides that plus the presence of “Kristy” on his arrival means that Sam wasn’t mourning him. 

SAM
Uh, yeah, I’m sorry, Bobby. I should have called. I was pretty messed up.

 DEAN picks up what he’d seen
a pink flowered bra. He holds it up.

 DEAN
Oh yeah. I really feel your pain.

 In the car he finds out that Sam was immune to Lilith’s attack and far from being happy that his brother couldn’t be killed by Lilith he went on the offensive about his “freaky ESP crap.”  This is really kind of important.  He hasn’t been alive a week - more than a day or two - and it’s like his mistrust of Sam has been dialed up to eleven. 

When they discuss the problem of the demons in the diner Dean objects to confronting them because there are three of them.  Sam points out that he’s been killing a lot more demons than that lately and Dean doesn’t even bat an eye.  ”Well, not anymore.  The smarter brother’s back in town.”  Let’s think about that for a moment.  Sam has just revealed that he’s been doing something great, something Dean should approve of, and he’s been doing it with extreme competence and exceeding the standard set before Dean’s death.  Is Dean proud?  No.  Is Dean happy?  Not even a little bit.  He demands that Sam hold himself back to assuage Dean’s ego.  That’s all that is there.  ”Well, not anymore.” 

Dean dislikes change.  He comes back from the dead and he expects everything to be exactly the way they were when he left, and conforming to his perception of the world.  In Dean’s mind Sam couldn’t find sex without Dean’s help and active participation, so he’s upset by finding Sam to be sexually active in his absence.  Sam cannot be allowed to be competent at killing demons.  It’s not okay that Sam was immune to Lilith’s abilities.  When he finds the iPod jack in the car he actually develops a facial tic even though Sam had no reason not to modify the car to suit his needs, given that he believed Dean to be permanently in Hell.

 Sam, of course, is lying to Dean about his abilities.  He has reason to.  He is afraid of Dean’s anger and disapproval in that order.  When he discusses the possibility of confessing with Ruby it is Ruby who recommends coming clean - about the abilities, about them - sooner rather than later. 

RUBY
Sam, he’s going to find out, and if it’s not from you he’s going to be pissed.

SAM
He’s going to be pissed anyway. I mean, he’s so hardheaded about this psychic stuff he’ll just try and stop me.

Sam knows better than to have any hope of Dean’s understanding or acceptance.  He knows that he needs to sneak around and work behind Dean’s back.  At the same time, he feels good about what he’s doing.  He’s saving people.

 The thing is, both brothers are sneaking around in this episode, lying to each other about where they are and what they’re doing, and they both wind up meeting up with the supernatural being who will lie to them and lead them around by the nose to help push them toward starting the Apocalypse.  Sam’s reasons seem a little more valid to me, because he’s doing it out of fear.  But I suppose someone else’s mileage may vary. 

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When Jumping the Shark, Please Wear Sam!Goggles.
So…. I was watching a painful episode yesterday. 
Jump the Shark. 

And as I watched it, I got really upset because it comprised so many things that makes me mad about Supernatural and the fandom. 
Throughout the episode Sam (who has learned from his mistakes concerning keeping information about monsters from people who might one day be in danger) wants to teach “Adam” about hunting. Or he, at least, wants to give “Adam” the choice, at first. 

However, this is spun through Dean’s eyes as a Sammy/Parent-Dean scenario, almost. And at the same time, John-Sam vs. Mary-Dean, which is a very convenient exercise in black-and-white thinking! 

Though Sam calls Dean out, because he believes Dean wants to keep “Adam” in the dark for selfish reasons, Dean is supposedly the one who wants what’s best for little, baby “Adam.” They are John’s pet martyrs; they knew the true John/ John had no choice raising them. Dean chooses to lean on John’s understanding, not his own. If John didn’t want Adam to know about hunting, despite the danger of that, then that’s holy writ. (And it’s a parent-y thing to do, riiiiiiiight?) 

People, keeping things from your kids while simultaneously putting them in danger is not a good parenting strategy. Please and thank you.

Though they spin it as a harshness in Sam, I see it as more of a practical way of dealing with their situation. And again, it’s about autonomy. He doesn’t think they have the right to withhold info from someone who just lost their mother and who might one day be in danger again. 

THIS IS WHERE SUPERNATURAL FAILS SAM. I don’t want to be in a club where you have to have Sam!Goggles on to be able to see his perspective!

Dean, to a casual viewer, despite the shitty way he treats Sam in this episode, is seen as the soft-hearted mama-bird taking care of his kiddos, despite the rough start. I guess people are willing to write off Dean continuing to point a gun at someone who might’ve been an innocent kid just because John being unfaithful to Mary’s memory is unthinkable.

The worst is when Dean gets to have his monologue at the end, where he describes his worship of John and how Sam is just-like-him-omg. As soon as Dean mentally turns on John, Sam’s suddenly exhibiting all his supposedly negative traits. Dean gets to spin Sam’s actions because his reaction is textual, and he gets to falsely equivocate that Sam was pulling a John Winchester by telling “Adam” about the hunting life, though “Adam” is an adult training to be a doctor and not a CHILD (as Sam and Dean were when introduced to hunting.) There is a WORLD of difference there. 

Also, Adam was sitting right there when Sam suggested using him as “bait.” Though he wasn’t participating at first, it wasn’t kept from him. 

Okay, I think you know Adam isn’t really Adam, so I’m dropping the quotation marks… finally.
Sam, talking to Adam about the life, was trying to slap a WARNING on hunting, to give Adam all the information necessary to make a decision for himself. 

And Dean— instead of seeing this as a warning sign about Sam’s mental state here—Dean castigates him for being like their father, the god to whom Dean used to offer his body, mind, and soul. Dean, instead of caring one ounce about Sam’s mindset, puts him down. Sam, who has hated hunting FOREVER, now thinks it will never, ever get better and that he’s stuck on this hunting treadmill for life.

Sam says, “Dean…all this…it’s not real. The dad Adam knew—he wasn’t real. The things out there in the shadows—they are real. The world is coming to an end. That’s real. Everything else is just part of the crap people tell themselves to get through the day.”

If that doesn’t sound like someone who has no hope for the future and might make suicidal decisions, I don’t know what does. And of course, instead of thinking about how Sam must feel to have done such a one-eighty, Dean just changes his opinion of Sam. No talking it out and no emotional support (thusly, no questions about what Sam might be thinking about doing), because of course, “No chick flick moments.” Sam can ask Dean if he’s ok, but God-forbid Dean ever takes an emotionally protective role in Sam’s life. He’ll physically protect him, but emotionally? Good luck with that, Sammy!

Remember the “It gets better” speech Sam gives Kevin in 8.1? This is where Sam desperately needed one of those. Or even one of those “Talk to me” moments Dean offered Cas in season 8. Obviously, Dean is capable of noticing emotion in others. Not in Sam, though.
Also, note the end of “Stairway to Heaven” and Dean’s dismissal of Sam vs. his concerned conversation with Castiel.

(In the context of season 4, I think it also showed Sam another instance of Dean being unable to see big-picture, and I think it subsequently cements in his mind, even more, that Dean’s stint in hell and all that damage will impinge his ability to kill Lilith.)

After Sam’s caveats about hunting, maybe Dean doesn’t like the bitterness in Sam’s voice. Maybe he doesn’t like the lack of enthusiasm. Because Dean equates hunting with being-with-Sam, even though Sam has disabused him of the notion that Sam wanted to leave Dean when he went to Stanford. No, he wanted to leave the hunting life; “Dad was the one” who said he couldn’t come back. Dean, unfortunately, is subconsciously unable to separate being-with-family (Sam) and hunting. If Sam feels free to do whatever he likes, Dean thinks he’ll leave.
And meanwhile, who chooses to be more like John?

I feel like Sam sees himself in Adam, here. He spent years and years as a child never knowing where the hell John was going, why they had to move so often, or even why everyone always seemed scared and tense. Kids see that. I would argue that they’re more in tune with people’s emotions than adults, because they’re constantly trying to emulate those around them, figuring out social cues like when to be happy, sad, angry, etc. How in the hell Sam is such a wonderful human being, the world may never know. 

Dean is, initially, the only one who refuses to respect Adam’s agency. Instead, he’s just some other kid who needs to be sheltered. In the past, Sam has also wanted to shield people from hunting, but I feel this is different. Here, Adam will continue to be in danger, simply because he carries John’s genetic material. And now that SamnDean know about him, he can be used against them. 
As a result, SamnDean discuss whether to let Adam help in the hunt, while Adam is in the room, and Dean, adhering to the John Winchester Code of Ethics, succinctly ends the discussion. 

When Adam asks, “Do I get a say in this?”
Dean yells, “NO!” 
Sam also says, “no,” but he says it gently. Despite all previous indication that he was going to give Adam the choice, he says no. 
Here, I see it as projection, and it ties into what he says later, when he says John did right by them as kids. 

As all Sam fans know, Sam ruminates. He thinks about his choices, carefully inspecting every action. He usually doesn’t act rashly. And then he thinks about his actions, and in retrospect, he gleans useful information from them. He learns from his mistakes. Sometimes he learns the wrong thing, though. People don’t always learn the most adaptive behavior. If only.

Sam, at this point, has rewritten his life’s story, and all the shitty things that happened to him have become, in his mind, thinks that happened because of him. Including both Sam and Dean’s childhoods, even though his mother made the deal. (Death washes away every sin….) And the most egregious mistake he’s made is leaving for Stanford and putting Jess in danger. 

Nevermind that John let him leave without telling him demons were out for his blood, or rather, that they might want to feed him their blood. John knew something (hence, “Save Sam or kill him, Son!”), and he should’ve told Sam.

According to Sam, If he hadn’t left, Jess would be alive. Maybe John would be alive, and maybe Dean would’ve never gone to Hell. He had been an ignorant child, thinking he could be a real person and have dreams and aspirations. Nope, he’s nothing special—subhuman, even— just a cog in a terrible, terrible machine. 

I really don’t think the writers adequately show that Sam is 100 percent projecting onto Adam. Adam wants to be a doctor (a prestigious career, similar in status to that of a lawyer), and Sam asks if he has a girlfriend, definitely thinking about Jess burning on the ceiling above their bed. He tells him he has to give up on the life he’d known if he wants to hunt.

 “He’s a Winchester. He’s already cursed.”

Obviously, I don’t agree with Sam that Adam doesn’t have a choice (people always have a choice), but I think the double-standard in this fandom is egregious. Some people will do anything to absolve poor Dean of his selfishness, his self-indulgent emotionality, his less-than-objective nature. If Sam doesn’t think-of-the-children!, he’s a calculating bastard!

 And this is on the writers.

 Yes, Sam is an introvert who doesn’t vocalize what he’s feeling (though people who are unable to think critically call him emo and whiny….(to a Sam fan, this argument is like saying “Christo” to a demon)…. He’ll easily talk about other people’s feelings, but to the casual viewer, he’s a black box. Unless you’re watching specifically from his perspective, it’s easy to miss what the narrative’s trying to say about him.

 And they don’t remedy that with outside perspective. They could easily have someone explain a bit of what he’s feeling, but unfortunately, as Safiyabat has pointed out, demons more often than not are the only people who seem Sam-sympathetic. They do lots of parallels, but it’s undeniable that words reach people better than subtextual metaphors. And nobody’s willing to give weight to a demon’s word…unless it’s, I dunno, someone whom Dean makes a connection with. I’m looking at you, “Sin City.”

 According to the text, Sam is John Winchester reborn because Dean says it. Meanwhile, according to subtext and the plot, Sam was right. The ghouls were pursuing a vendetta just because they were Winchesters, and unfortunately, Adam is already dead. He was cursed from the start… but he deserved to know it, just as Sam did.

 Of course, Sam and John are paralleled in this episode. Sam didn’t tell Jess about hunting, and she ended up dead. John didn’t tell Adam’s mom about hunting, and she and her son ended up dead. I find Sam’s situation to be vastly different, though, in that Sam was looking forward, to a new life outside of hunting, especially since his family had repudiated him.
 Another troubling aspect of this episode is what, perhaps, the writers attempted to do. They did have an outside perspective in this episode: “Adam,” who seemed more sympathetic toward Sam. After Dean yelled “No!” and Sam spoke “No,” (that’s how both words are written in the transcript), Adam asks,

 “Is he always like that?”
 Sam laughs. He simply replies,
“Welcome to the family.” 

A family where John (from beyond the grave) and Dean are in charge. No questioning that or you’re not a good soldier. (Of course, turns out that Adam was a ghoul, so anything he said or seemed to think is null and void! Lovely.) 
Since Sam laughs it off, it must be OK; he must be OK. It’s a running joke. Dean calls the shots and Sam ducks his head, only rebelling wen Dean’s not around. 
 I just find it interesting that Dean has a condemning tone when he compares Sam and John, but he continues to take John’s lead in decision-making strategies. He picks and chooses the aspects of John he finds acceptable, pieces that help him retain control.
And that’s what all of this comes down to. Control of Sam. Dean knows what Sam thinks, that he’s changed since hell. Dean is upset at Sam’s change of opinion, and using John’s wishes is a convenient way to keep him in line. He wants to use Sam’s insecurity to keep him in check, too.
 Dean didn’t expect all this crap to change his brother, but it did, irrevocably. Dean going to Hell for Sam didn’t keep his brother whole. It broke him.
 It doesn’t help that John gave Dean his new mission with his dying breath and YED planted a seed in Dean’s brain once he brought him back. Both these incidents provided ample “justification” for his dehumanization of his brother.

 Is Sam still Sam? Or is he a monster?

And, really, Sam and ‘Adam” are paralleled. Sam takes a big brother role, and he eventually finds out he was mentoring a monster. They both want revenge on something that killed a close family member. Does Dean think that will happen to him, that his attempts at controlling Sam will come back to bite him? (I’m sorry. That’s an uncalled-for pun.)
Maybe it’s easier to lay it all at the feet of John. You’re just like Dad.
And maybe it’s easier for Dean to see Sam as a monster than a broken person, a shadow of the child who’d idolized him. Then he doesn’t have to feel at all responsible. 

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 SAFIYA:
"I Know What You Did Last Summer" is one of my favorite episodes of all time.  We get to meet Anna Milton, one of the few angels I feel doesn’t need to be deep-fried extra crispy (for the most part.)  We get to meet Alastair, getting a better view of Dean’s time in Hell.  We get to see more of Ruby, and more Ruby means a happy Safiyabat.  We get to see how Sam coped with Dean’s death. 

I Know What You Did Last Summer: The Episode

 We get to meet Anna Milton.  This poor woman.  She’s going about her life, living it and being vaguely normal, when suddenly she starts hearing angels in her head.  Can we take a moment to appreciate how horrifying all of this must be for her?  Because a lot of what they’re saying isn’t nice - they’re talking about the End of Days, and not the “sanitized” version of the Book of Revelations.  She somewhat predictably winds up in an asylum, which is then infiltrated by demons.  She doesn’t let her circumstances define her.  When she sees the demon, she fights even though she doesn’t really understand how she knows how to fight.  She just does it and she flees. 

We meet Alastair, the torture master from Hell.  He’s got a special relationship with Dean, we’ll learn more about that as time goes on, but he’s there and this is our first encounter with “Picasso with a razor.”

 We see more of Ruby.  We see her in three different hosts in this episode: a blonde secretary from Sheboygan, the hotel maid and the lovely host we’ve come to know and love.  We also learn about the fact that she’s possessing someone whose soul is no longer present - a choice she made for Sam’s benefit. 

Dean Winchester

 Dean brightens up visibly when Anna refers to him as “the Dean,” appealing to his hero complex and his need for recognition.  He’s very much enamored of Anna once they meet, although he was firmly reluctant to take the case.  He’s also very friendly and understanding of her once it’s revealed that she’s only tuning into angel radio and not actually mentally ill. The dirty work, though - telling her about her parents, for example - he leaves to Sam.

 Dean’s encounter with Alastair is brief but it doesn’t take more than a couple of words for Dean to recognize his tormentor.  This strongly suggests that Alastair had personal charge of Dean and that Dean probably didn’t interact with many demons outside of Alastair.  It’s not proof of course and he he could have interacted with others in company with Alastair, but Alastair would have been his primary guard and tormentor as well as instructor.

Sam Winchester

This is a very Sam-centric episode.  It is a rare glimpse into Sam’s head.  While parts of the fandom like to describe Sam as “talkative” and “needing to express his emotions and feelings,” that’s not Sam at all and we have to rely on flashbacks and very surreal “trip into Sam’s head” episodes to have any real idea what Sam’s thinking.  We’ll look at this trait a little bit more in the next section, but it’s worth mentioning now that when Dean presses him on how he can describe Ruby as “saving his life” he snaps back with a demand that Dean talk about his time in Hell - not because he actually expects Dean to talk, but because he knows it will shut him up.

We do see Sam’s time without Dean in this episode, and it’s not pretty.  We see him outright attempt suicide once, when he summons the crossroads demon (who appears in the guise of an attractive man, not a woman) and demands to exchange places with Dean.  The trade he wants isn’t like Dean’s was, he doesn’t want any time with Dean or even a moment to explain what he did and be thanked or punched or to even say goodbye.  He wants an immediate exchange, do not pass go do not collect $200.  This is suicide, plain and simple.  And I think that it’s worth noting that he does not want to spend time with Dean again, he just wants to die and go to Hell.  
When that fails he moves on to suicidally reckless - Ruby calls him out on it and he doesn’t deny it, he just puts the demon-killing knife to her throat and refuses to allow her to stop him.  And I wouldn’t say, honestly, that he ever really stops with “suicidally reckless.” 

What he’s not willing to do is to let other people suffer for his sake.  He’s able to pull off his first exorcism because Ruby is in danger, danger she got into saving him.  Ruby initially possessed a blonde secretary, and Sam refused to work with her even after she saved his life (again) unless she let the secretary go. 

It should be pointed out that Sam was deeply, incredibly resistant to sex with Ruby at first and their conversation emphasized the nature of possession.  She had to remind him that the body was entirely free of its original owner, and even then he was resistant.  He was drunk, he’d taken some pills (presumably painkillers considering the circumstances) that he washed down with more booze.  What we saw was not a loving act, however… visually appealing… the scene may be. 

Back in the present, it falls to Sam to do the dirty work when it comes to the brothers’ interactions with Anna.  He’s the first one to speak with her, to coax her out of her hiding place.  She’s initially excited because she knows the name, but then he’s shunted off to the side for “The Dean,” and gets “and some of them don’t like you at all.”  Sam has to be the one to break the news to Anna about her parents.  At the same time, for all that it was Dean that she was excited to meet it was Sam that she asked for permission to call her parents and Sam who actually tried to comfort her.  Not Dean.  Considering how things played out, in season 5, that makes me very sad.

Winchester Family Dynamics

Dean is furious when Ruby shows up at the bar.  Some of that fury may be the result of Sam giving up the money to go talk to her but that’s not really what’s going on there, it’s not what he’s talking about.  He complains the whole time and tries to block the conversation about the case, objects to Sam’s involvement with her.  He doesn’t talk about the money at all.  It is entirely about Ruby.

He continues to pursue the matter in the car later, pushing and pushing Sam about his relationship with Ruby.  He is neither gentle nor nice about it.  He has never approved of Sam’s relationship with Ruby even when Dean himself trusted Ruby, and now he’s just incensed.  Sam, though, Sam stabs back.  He demands that Dean talk about Hell - “And don’t spare the details.”  Per their conversation at the end of “Wishful Thinking” he knows Dean won’t actually talk about Hell, and that’s not what he actually wants here.  He wants Dean to shut up and he’ll use whatever means necessary to achieve that end.  This is a far cry from the man people see as “needy and wanting to always talk about himself and his feelings.”  This is a man who is willing to hurt his brother rather than talk about himself.  He does not see Dean as a confidant.

The scene where they “patch each other” up is a favorite one in the fandom, and it’s an important one for the window it provides into the boys’ lives.  They get beat to hell all the time and it’s not like they can really access hospitals.  The thing is, they’re not “patching each other” up, the way I see it described a lot of the time.  Sam gives himself stitches (which we’ve seen him do before, in Mystery Spot.)  He’s giving himself stitches in a challenging location with one hand while Dean complains about how long it’s taking, apparently without ceasing because he should be Sam’s priority.  Then Sam resets Dean’s shoulder.  They’re not patching each other up.  Sam patches them both up while dealing with Dean’s complaints.

Of course, now the brothers have to talk - again, at Dean’s insistence, not Sam’s.  This is a conversation that never fails to infuriate me toward Dean.  Sam describes his failed suicide attempt - failed because Lilith didn’t want his soul.  He describes coming home to find Ruby and two other demons and how he didn’t even fight, just told Ruby to go ahead and kill him.  He describes his suicidally reckless fight with Lilith.  He also talks about having sex with Ruby and using his abilities.

So Dean sits there and he hears his brother talking about wanting to die, trying to die, and what’s his takeaway?  Sex with Ruby and “manipulative bitch who did all she could to get you to go bad.”  Sam’s using his powers to save possessed people from demons.  In what world is that “bad?”  Dean’s.  The sex is bad because Sam is having sex with someone that is not Dean-approved in a context that was not Dean-arranged.  But seriously, his brother wanted to die, tried to die, and his takeaway is “Sam had sex that I didn’t approve of and turned into a bad guy because he used his powers that I told him not to.”

He does make a half-hearted attempt to thank Ruby for not letting Sam die.  She points out the half-assedness of the attempt.  The moment passes. 

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 Anonymous asked:
Okay, congrats on 1700! I want a scene where Sam meets someone, either angel or some other powerful creature who basically fangirls all over him because he's the GUY - the one who took down Lucifer! The one who jumped into the cage! He's the ONE! Just, someone loving on Sam and so thrilled to meet him because he SAVED THE WORLD! Bonus if Dean is there and is shocked to see his Lil Bro getting ALL THE LOVE


Safiya needs to put the computer away Answer:
sweetsamofmine:
Thanks! And, anon, how did you know this is my JAM?
AW YIS


The Winchesters didn’t know what to expect when they agreed to meet with Jophiel, but they did know he knew Metatron and he was important. Sam could rattle off stats off the top of his head because he always seemed to know trivial facts about everything. Probably a side effect of reading all the time.

"He’s known as a ‘Prince of Heaven’ and the Torah says he’s the caretaker of the ‘seven Heavens.’"

Dean had nodded at his brother. “Anything else?”

"He knew Moses."

The boys shrugged at each other, slightly impressed.

But what really would help them is if Jophiel could help them take down Metatron. Dean needed to watch him die slowly. And Sam was ready for, that, too. It had been a long, hard road, losing Dean, discovering Dean as a demon, and getting him back to normal again. There were lots of factors that went into play to bring about that ordeal, but Metatron was a very clear one the boys could fixate on and possibly deal with right now.

So they headed out to meet this Jophiel, who Cas had told them might be of service because he had spent millenia working closely with Metatron before he went into hiding. That’s how it worked, Metatron wrote the words of God, Jophiel dealt with the music. They had been companions, but it was clear that isn’t how it was anymore. With any luck, the Winchesters would find a way to appeal to him and gain an ally to bring Metatron down.

Cas helped them set the spell up to call Jophiel, and before they knew it, there he was. Er… she was. Her vessel stood tall, a beautiful, curvaceous, black woman with deep red lips.
"What’s going on here, Castiel, why have I been interrupted?" she said in a thick British accent with a flick of her eyes at the boys. She seemed impatient, but not uninterested.

"These are the Winchesters," Castiel began by way of introduction. "They have a  few—"

"The Winchesters?" A smile broke across her dark face. "I thought that was who I was looking at." She began to close the gap between herself and boys.

Dean stepped forward with a smile, holding out his hand. “I’m Dean, this is my brother, Sam—”

"Yes! Yes, of course it is!" Her smile widened even more as she approached, her eyes jumping between each boy. She shook Dean’s hand. "I’ve heard a lot about you two. You’ve had a real interesting year haven’t you Dean?”

Dean’s smile diminished and his eyebrows rose. “I…guess—”

Jophiel didn’t wait for any more from Dean as she jerked her hand away and made to approach Sam. Dean’s hand wilted in place, then dropped quickly to his side.

Her eyes absolutely glittered as she looked Sam over. Sam stood stiff and awkward, uncomfortable with the gaze she was casting over him. She grabbed his hand to shake vigorously, even though he had not extended it to her to begin with. He forced a smile at her. He could not understand why she was so interested in him.

"You’re the boy who Azazel set up to rule Hell." She continued to shake his hand.

Sam looked stricken and glanced at Dean for backup. He shrugged, confused.

She went on. “He set that up years in advance. He was toiling away at that plan. But instead you rejected the crown of the Boy King.”

Now Sam’s eyebrows went up, creating a surprised wrinkle on his forehead as his mouth started to hang open, slightly.

"And then you were supposed to be Lucifer’s vessel, even more preparation went into that. It was decades of planning, maybe even more. There was scripture about it, and prophecy, and angels playing a chess game around you, but you overcame that too and forced Lucifer into the Cage!"

Sam looked over to Dean again but Dean was just as bewildered as he was. Jophiel wouldn’t let Sam’s hand go.

"You suffered for centuries in there! Then you walked the earth again, even through hallucinations. You were proved worthy of the Trials. You nearly finished them! Oh, I’ve written songs about you, child. The Cherubim Choir broke up long ago, but ever so often my heart gets inspired to sing, and you inspire me, Sam Winchester.”

Sam was so surprised by this greeting, he wasn’t sure what do so, so he nodded and said a lame, “Thanks!” with a nervous grin at the angel. He felt warm all over.

Jophiel laughed loud and ringing, then turned to Castiel. “Alright,” she said. “What do you three need? I’ll do whatever I can do to help savior of the world and his brother.”

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I found Safiya on thumblr and all she writes about the Winchester brothers I totally agree to 100%,...boy I like this girl, her perception is just great! That is why I have to reblog her analysis, because they are awesome!

SAFIYA
"A small rant about recent S10 teasers and spoilers"

The following is a small rant about SPN S10 spoilers and teasers that have been released.  If you do not wish to view such content, do not click on the read more.  It is also extremely Dean-unfriendly.  It this upsets you, don’t read it.
So I saw a quote somewhere that had Jensen saying that when Dean is cured that he feels good about where they were at the end of season 9, that he doesn’t feel bad about the things he did as a demon because it wasn’t him but that he’ll be upset about the things Sam did to get him back and that he should have just “let him go.”  Which jives with the things I’ve seen Carver saying about Sam doing “unsavory” things to get Dean back.

Fuck you, Not Moose.

First of all, after you spent ALL OF SEASON 8 abusing Sam for not getting you back, you don’t get to be upset with him for not letting you go this time around.  Fuck you right in the ear.  With a chainsaw.

Secondly.  He doesn’t feel bad about the things he did as a demon because it wasn’t him, but he holds the things that Sam did while he was soulless against him AND holds the fact that Sam came back soulless in the first place against him.

Fuck you, Not Moose.

Third, Dean, even though you may think that you became a demon through outside forces, you became a demon through your own SHITTY CHOICES. Your own EVIL choices.  You became a demon because you did BAD THINGS.  The fact that you don’t feel bad about them just says terrible things about you, and tells me that you’re going to continue to deny responsibility for your own crap while continuing the pattern of blaming Sam disproportionately.

Fuck.  You.  Not.  Moose.

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Anonymous asked:

"...I really, really love that Sam stood up to Dean. It’s the kind of thing that just really makes me cringe and look away when I see it, especially when I usually see Dean as such a good character who has done so much for his brother." It doesn't seem (to me) that you still think Dean is a good character, or that he has done a lot for his brother, but more so that you believe he's done a lot TO his brother FOR himself.

Safiya needs to put the computer away Answer:

"Dean didn’t do it on purpose. He wasn’t looking to destroy his brother, he was looking to save the person who saved him and who has never let him down. Dean is not a bad guy. He’s a great guy. He’s a hero. He’s a saint. He made a mistake. Like Sam. I just don’t know that he understands how much of a mistake he’s made." This is the fake Amelia text post. And again, I’m just curious about what your thoughts are on the opinions you held a year ago vs. now?
Sorry this was so long! Also, I’m not putting you down if your opinions have changed, that’s only natural when we see more of the show and get a better understanding of the characters. I know my thoughts have changed a lot! :)

 Hi there!  So the short answer is that yes, my opinions have changed and shifted and that I’ve become a lot more confident in expressing them.  Funnily enough I’ve been engaged in a private discussion on twitter about when my conversational partner and I stopped viewing Dean in a sympathetic light.  I can tell you the exact moment when I stopped seeing Dean as a good guy - 9.01, when he colluded with Gadreel to deceive Sam into being possessed without his knowledge.  I’ll explain further under the cut, ‘cause it might get a little verbose. 

So when the quotes you’ve dug up - and I should probably be flattered that you took the time to go back that far in my archives? - I was newer to the fandom and I was more hesitant to express more Dean-critical statements.  As with many survivors, part of me was concerned that I might be projecting my own experiences onto what I was seeing.  I was being influenced by the other fans with whom I was interacting who were very much of the “Dean gave up everything for his little brother” opinion. 

I know better now. 

I’ve had more of an opportunity to sit down and analyze Dean’s behavior as part of a pattern.  The switching out of Amelia’s phone number in Sam’s contacts - when that quote was written, I hadn’t picked up on the prior planning on Dean’s part, but now I have.  Dean honestly went through at some point prior to “Citizen Kane” - probably prior to Sam meeting Benny - and actually made the conscious decision to change Amelia’s number in Sam’s contact information to make sure that Sam couldn’t contact Amelia if he wanted to.  That brings it from “a mistake to save Benny” as I believed it to have been at the time to a deliberate decision on Dean’s part meant to control Sam that happened to result in helping Benny, but that had nothing to do with Benny when the decision was made.  There’s a difference.  It was intended to prevent Sam from having contact with outsiders, the intent is different and that’s gross.  It’s also abusive. 

On initially watching the show, I did not want to see Dean as an abuser and like many fans I think that I made a subconscious decision to waive away his abusive tendencies.  After “I Think I’m Going To Like It Here,” that was no longer possible.  Dean committed an act of such unspeakable evil that I was unable to see him in a positive light.  In rewatching older episodes now I can see where I was simply choosing to not see his terrible behavior toward his brother. 

And before someone accuses me of “retconning” Dean in light of how he’s being portrayed now, of seeing his behavior as selfish because he’s being written as a jerk now (and I’ve been accused of this before), I’m going to point out to you that Dean himself has admitted that he did not sell his soul for Sam. He did not resurrect Sam for Sam’s sake, he did it for himself.  He did it because Dean could not live with Sam dead, in his own words.  Not because he thought Sam was particularly worthy of extended life and not because he cared how Sam would cope with the guilt he himself had experienced when John did it to him.  He got Death to retrieve Sam’s soul, but before he found out Sam was soulless he actually rejected him when he learned he was alive.  He abandoned him by the side of the road when he wouldn’t toe the line with John, he backed John in every dispute, he left Sam to twist when Lucifer came calling, he refused to deal with the consequences of the disaster that was re-inserting Sam’s soul and in fact left Sam to deal with Dean’s alcoholism and poor coping skills in season 7. These traits have always been there; fandom just waives them away when they see the One Perfect Tear. 

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We know that episodes with levity are used in a season to offset incidents of high angst.  This isn’t news to anyone.  We’ve just had two very funny episodes and to some extent they were stuck in there to take away from the pain of “Metamorphosis” and “In The Beginning,” but I think that they were kind of pre-emptive too.  ”It’s The Great Pumpkin” is the beginning of a real spiral for Sam, and we definitely know where it leads.

 It’s The Great Pumpkin, Sam Winchester: The Episode

 This one gives us more angels and demons, a hot apocalyptic mess.  We see more of Castiel, and we see him in a role that is supposed to be sympathetic (I guess.)  We also see him in the role of a commander.  Cas is in charge of Uriel, that’s made fairly clear here.  He’s joined by the completely unlovable Uriel, whose contempt for humans in general and for Sam in particular is made abundantly clear.

 I’m kind of curious about something.  I’ve seen Dean!stans and Sam!haters er Sam-critical fans choose to say that Sam should have stopped using his powers specifically because the angels told him not to.  Castiel uses a line here: When they talk about destroying the town to stop the seal breaking and the Winchesters call the angels on the injustice of that measure, Castiel replies with, “It comes from Heaven.  That makes it just.”  How can they seriously justify saying that Sam should have followed angels’ orders simply because they came from angels?  Knowing what we know about angels, how is it even possible to justify that?  Seeing that scene, even seeing Castiel manipulate Dean in “In the Beginning,” how is it possible to justify that attitude?

 We also have the presence of not one but a team of witches trying to summon a demon, an interesting variant on the old stories I remember (I seem to recall Samhain as a holiday, not as a demon?  Or am I misremembering?) whose summoning is one of the 66 seals and whose powers include the ability to summon an army of monsters to do his bidding.  It is this monster who the Winchesters have come to town to fight. 

Dean Winchester

 This is going to seem kind of nit-picky and maybe as a small thing to be annoyed about, but Dean saying that if he could choose any form to be in as an immortal witch he’d pick a hot cheerleader really grossed me out.  Dean around high school girls grosses me out in general - we’ll talk about that a bit in “After School Special” too.  He also fat-shames the astronaut kid.  What was his next move going to be, stealing the kid’s candy?  It seemed inappropriate. 

We see that Dean is still sold on the angels even if he thinks they’re dicks.  He says specifically that they are righteous.  Maybe it’s because they see him as righteous?  And I don’t know - knowing that they know him, what he is and was in Hell, and still see him as “righteous” himself probably goes a long way toward cementing that loyalty.  Knowing that they see Sam the way he sees Sam probably does too. 

In the end, Castiel tells Dean what their true orders were and it wasn’t to stop the breaking of the seal.  It was to test Dean under battlefield conditions.  Where have we seen this sort of thing before?  Oh right - “Jus in Bello,” only it was Sam who was being tested by Ruby.  This is not a subtle parallel.

Sam Winchester

This is Sam’s first encounter with angels.  Sam is the one who has always been faithful to God, he’s the one who has always believed, the one who has always prayed.  Ever since Dean’s resurrection he’s encouraged his brother to believe despite never being honored with the presence of an angel himself and he’s never shown the slightest bit of jealousy or bitterness about it.  The most he’s done?  ”I’m not scared of angels,” to Ruby.  An expression of faith.

All of that faith, all of that hope, is undone in seconds.  Castiel hesitates to shake his hand and dismisses him as “the boy with the demon blood.”  The diminutive is important.  Dean is “the righteous man,” Sam is the “boy with the demon blood.”  Uriel is worse.  Uriel informs him that he will be obliterated the second he is no longer “useful.”  He’ll never trust angels again, and he’s not likely to give them much of an ear either.  He sees them for what they are.

 To be fair, I don’t think that they expected their encounter with Sam to push him away so completely.  I think they expected him to remain more in awe of them.  Uriel certainly didn’t expect to receive the amount of back talk that he did at the end of the episode.  I think they underestimated Sam Winchester, as most people do.  (I mean, Victor Henricksen openly referred to him as a halfwit.)

 Sam has shown a knowledge of witchcraft on a few occasions and it crops up again here.  I sometimes wonder why it is that he’s more comfortable with that knowledge than Dean.  We also see his comfort with “winging it,” coming up with a plan on the fly in terms of masking themselves from Samhain.

 When Dean forbids Sam from using his abilities (more on that later) Sam goes in with the knife against Samhain, but he doesn’t go in to stab him first.  He starts throwing punches.  I have to kind of wonder about his thought process here.  ”I have the ability to exorcise this powerful demon, and I can kill it with impunity because the host is dead already.  But I’m not going to do either.  I’m going to punch it in the face because I know that somewhere out there a pudgy Massachusetts woman is watching this, and she needs to see more of me throwing punches in her life.  She’s having a bad week.”  That’s exactly how it went and you can’t convince me otherwise.

 Winchester Family Dynamics

Neither Sam nor Dean wants Lucifer to rise, which ostensibly puts them on the side of Heaven.  Sounds great, right?  Of course, Sam’s encounter with Castiel and Uriel immediately makes him extremely angel-skeptical.  Just as with their father Sam questions everything.  When they go in to fight Samhain, Sam brings up the possibility of using his abilities and Dean flat-out forbids it and demands he use the knife, because the angels told him not to use his ability.  Sam points out that the angels don’t seem to be right about much but Dean insists that they’re right about this.

And why is that?  Well, it’s because in this case they’re saying what Dean wants to hear.  He’s hated Sam’s abilities ever since they first cropped up in season 1.  They’re something that is uniquely Sam, something that he cannot control and that clearly makes them evil.  The angels played on that in showing him Mary’s deal and what Azazel did to Sam.  
 
When Dean sees Sam fight Samhain, the knife is on Dean’s side of the room.  He could have stepped in.  He saw that Sam had lost the knife.  If Sam had not exorcised Samhain, not only would Sam have died Samhain would have been freed to unleash a horde of monsters upon the earth.  Dean saw that, and he saw that Sam was suffering and in pain as he used his abilities in his own defense.  He didn’t care.  It wasn’t important to him.  It wasn’t important to him that Sam had no other options, and he didn’t lift a finger to grab that knife and go help his brother.  All he could do was angst about how Sam broke orders and used his abilities. 

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Sam Hate, gtfo

Y’know I can put up with every kind of hate from this fandom, alright. I can put up with Wincest and Destiel hating, Sastiel and Sabriel hating… I can put up with Dean hate, with Cas hate, with Charlie hate and Kevin hate….but there is just one tiny tiny thing that I can’t handle.
Hating on Sam Winchester.

Are you aware that Sam Winchester would sacrifice his life for you- he wouldn’t even have to speak a word to you, he’d take a bullet for you and you know it. 

Are you aware that Sam Winchester saved a god damn dog he hit while -rumored- to be committing suicide because he couldn’t handle life without Dean anymore?!

Are you fucking aware that Sam Winchester has only done what he has always thought was right- but because of fucking DEMONS and ANGELS and HIS GOD DAMN BROTHER LYING to him has made his sense of right and wrong foggy because they keep the most important shit from him. 

Are you fucking aware that Sam Winchester has lost the people he loves most more than once: Jessica, Dean x all those Tuesdays, John, Brady, Madison (which he did that deed by himself), Amy (who was killed by Dean), and many many more.

Are you aware that Sam, our beautiful Sam just wanted Amy to be safe, promised and begged Dean not to go after her. Just this one thing. He did it anyways, and even after that Dean complained all fucking season about how Sam wasn’t a good brother, how he couldn’t trust him while DEAN- DEAN GOES AND CONVERSES AND HELPS A FUCKING VAMPIRE AND SAM IS STILL SAYING SORRY.

ARE YOU AWARE THAT SAM FELT LIKE COMPLETE SHIT S8 FINALE, that he roughly said “What happens when you can’t trust another vampire or angel, hmm what about then?” and he’s so fucking messed up that he really thinks Dean thinks that he can’t trust him. He’s so fucking messed up and under-appreciated, he says, "MY Greatest sin was how many times I’ve let you down." Dean has been on the podium of the most important things for Sam, and to have Sam be so truthful about that- for Sam to tell Dean that he’s sorry sorry for things that weren’t his fault makes me want to throw up.

Are you fucking aware that he was basically kicked away from the only family he’s ever known because he wanted a normal life. Are you also aware that Dean says, “He checked up on you sometimes.” or something and he expects it to make up for being pushed out.

Are you aware that he was destined to be lucifer’s vessel thousands of years before his existence was even thought of. Are you aware even then he managed to break out of something that was destined for him when he realized that he was going to kill his brother and eventually the world if he let Lucifer possess him completely.

ARE YOU AWARE that FUCKING SAM WINCHESTER ACCEPTED AN ETERNITY TO HELL WITH-OUT COMPLAINT. HE KNEW HE WAS GOING TO BE STUCK WITH TWO ARCHANGELS THAT WOULD BE MORE CREATIVE IN TORTURING HIM.

DO YOU UNDERsTAND THAT SAM WINCHESTER HAS ALWAYS DONE WHAT WAS BETTER FOR THE GREATER GOOD WHEN HE WASN’T BEING MANIPULATED BY ANGELS, OR DEMONS, OR HIS BROTHER, OR ANYONE.

IS IT CLEAR THAT SAM WINCHESTER WOULD’VE DIED FOR THE WORLD’S SAFETY IF HE WASN’T MANIPULATED BY DEAN TO STOP THE TRIALS AND LET DEMONS REIGN STILL.

ARE WE ON THE SAME PAGe WHEN I SAY THAT SAM WINCHESTER KNOWS WHEN HE IS RIGHT, AND WHEN HE IS WRONG. ARE WE AWARE THAT SAM MAKES MISTAKES. CAN WE BRING UP HOW HE HAS FELT LIKE A FREAK SINCE HE WAS BORN. WHAT ABOUT HOW HE STILL DOESN’T KNOW HOW THAT VOICE MAIL FROM DEAN WAS JUST RUBY’S MAKING. WHAT ABOUT SAM TRYING HIS BEST TO HAVE A NORMAL LIFE AFTER DEAN WENT TO PURGATORY ONLY TO BE SCOLDED BY DEAN FOR NOT LOOKING FOR HIM. he was just doing what he thought Dean would want. 

HOW ABOUT HOW SAM IS A GOD DAMN SOLDIER SINCE HE WAS KID, AND THAT HE DAMN SURE STILL SPOKE ON HOW HE HATED THE LIFE, AND HOW NO MATTER WHAT HE WAS GOING TO BE NORMAL AND WHEN THAT HAPPENED HIS GIRLFRIEND ENDED UP ON THE CEILING AND ONE OF HIS BEST FRIENDS ENDED UP BEING POSSESSED BY A DEMON. 

THE PROBLEM HERE IS THAT EVERYONE IN SPN ARE FUCKING HYPOCRITES TOWARDS SAM, ALRIGHT. I’M GOIN’ TO SAY IT FOR ALL OF US.

Sam Winchester is possibly one of the bravest, selfless human beings in all of history- to me anyways. So if you try to hate on him for doing something for s4, but don’t look into all of the details well, here’s a big cup of fuck you, you hypocrite.

Sam Winchester is a hero. Sam Winchester doesn’t deserve hate. Sam Winchester shouldn’t have to say he’s sorry. Sam Winchester deserves a life he wants. Sam Winchester deserves the best sliver of heaven.

Sam Winchester deserves so much more, but not hate.
(sorry I let my Sam!girl show)